Chapter 32

Daniela was told about something that Steve and Kyra did. She said that it was horrible and disgusting. I'm curious to know what it is. But I've asked her not to tell me. I'm trying to put this all behind me. I know that if I find out something that devastating than it will only open old wounds. And wounded I am. I tried not to be. I hate being victimized. But I guess I am. Kyra honest to god has been attacking me ever since I walked away last year. She simply cannot let this go. I'm nearly at my wits end too. Him, plus her. It's almost run me out of school. When I don't see them I'm perfectly fine. But I can feel their bad energy when they walk by me. It's like a black smoke. It's this horrid, ominous being that follows them where every they go. When it touches me I can feel it sucking me in. I'm trying so hard to resist. I'm trying to stay out of all of that. I know that everything will be fine if I keep my head held high and don't sink to their level. But I feel myself slipping. I'm lonely too. I really enjoyed intimacy. I miss feeling that close to someone; feeling loved. I miss knowing that someone was looking out for me, like I do everyone else. I miss being kissed, and touched. But I don't miss him, and that says everything. I keep telling myself that something better is going to come along now. But I don't think I truly believe that.