Chapter 5

I spent all day thinking that Steve was going to come and visit me at work. I would even go as far as to say that I was fairly excited to see him. But, big surprise, he ended up cancelling. Maybe Daniela was right. Maybe he really isn't worth this. She sat me down the other day and gave me this incredibly long speech about how I deserve better. For the most part, I simply tuned her out. I hate hearing things like that. I'm a big girl and I understand the consequences of my decisions. But, maybe it's time I start to consider what she has to say. Do I really deserve better than just being by his side? Normally I would brutally insult any girl who just waits by her man, but in this case our abstract relationship is kind of nice. We have two separate lives and simply lean on each other when needed. Or at least I thought it was nice. Maybe I do actually want more- want better.